It's day twenty-two of the A to Z Challenge!
Today's topic is vehemence. Or rather, that's the title of the poem I'm sharing today. This poem is from Pieces of the Soul, so you're getting a rare glimpse inside the book today.
from time to time
it comes, unbidden,
a habit, an addiction
a double edged sword that
scars us both, victim and me
it's part of me
but it frightens me all the same
vehemence
there aredays
i just want to roll back over
submerge into fantasy
forgetting the banality
of day to day existence
my life isn't horror
it's not even all that interesting
most days
it's the scary little dark part
deep in me
that i wish to avoid
that makes me huddle
small and childlike
the mask, the defense,
the armor that kept me safe
through the early years
the tumultuous years
the fiery, raging fury
which swept over all
and left naught in its wake -
not even ashes -
for it was so hot and bright
that sword, still sharp,
still gleaming bright
has been sheathed.
i just want to roll back over
submerge into fantasy
forgetting the banality
of day to day existence
my life isn't horror
it's not even all that interesting
most days
it's the scary little dark part
deep in me
that i wish to avoid
that makes me huddle
small and childlike
the mask, the defense,
the armor that kept me safe
through the early years
the tumultuous years
the fiery, raging fury
which swept over all
and left naught in its wake -
not even ashes -
for it was so hot and bright
that sword, still sharp,
still gleaming bright
has been sheathed.
i havelittle need for
it now from time to time
it comes, unbidden,
a habit, an addiction
a double edged sword that
scars us both, victim and me
it's part of me
but it frightens me all the same
This is some vivid soul mining.
ReplyDeleteLee
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Lee, thanks for visiting! It definitely was a hard one to write.
DeleteWow. That brought me back into my own past. Thank you for the glimpse.
ReplyDeleteWelcome!
DeleteThat is so EXCELLENT Amy thank you. Many of us won't think, feel, reflect, ponder on our dark recesses. You have done so, graphically, poetically and courageously, thank you.
ReplyDeleteSusan Scott's Soul Stuff
Susan, I'm touched. Thank you for your kind words! Thanks for visiting!
DeleteAh, that "dark night of the soul."
ReplyDeleteHi Amy,
ReplyDeleteThis is really an interesting post,
Would like to come back again to read more
after the a to z challenge
keep blogging
Good Wishes
Keep in touch
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Phil @ Philipscom
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Phil, thanks so visiting. I'd be happy to see you again in the blogosphere!
DeleteVery eery, love the cadence of reading it aloud.
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Sandy, thanks. This one definitely reached deep.
DeleteSuch an authentic poem. It's really beautiful.
ReplyDeleteJaime at Awakenings and Reflections
I'm honored that you enjoyed it.
DeleteEnjoyed the poem ! Bful
ReplyDeleteI'm glad!
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